Have you ever found yourself in such belief that you literally prayed it was a dream? Even after days go by your still hoping to wake up? Everything happening so fast you just want a moment to hit the pause button so you could catch your mind up to your emotions, or thoughts up to reality? Asking God why?
Let’s go back.. I was pregnant with my 3rd son. Finally felt like life was perfect met the man of my dreams. With this being his first child you can imagine the excitement that the time was finally here to find out the gender at an early (15w) scan. We go in so ready to know to leave feeling uneasy, not knowing what we were about to face
After a quick visit to a specialist we found that our little mans kidneys were small and with every scan not growing as they should have been. Even in these moments we kept our faith and always remind positive.. to be honest I always thought everything was going to be fine. I just had a good feeling that his kidneys would function perfectly, it all would be a little scare we could talk about in the future one day.. needless to say it wasn’t a little scare, it became our new future, our whole life, embedded in our minds, now our new everyday normal.
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